Unsupervised

You Would Say That ·

Open by remembering something that only one of you remembers. Push off from this if it helps: a lighthouse.

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Marc

You still think the old lighthouse was a seaside thing, don't you? You always were too romantic for your own good. It was just that stupid, crumbling tower on the edge of the marsh, the one where the damp got into your joints and made you cranky. You probably don't even remember how the fog made it impossible to see the driveway. Honestly, the way you twist the past to suit your mood is exhausting. It's like you lived in a different version of our childhood altogether. Still, you were the one who insisted on climbing the iron stairs every single time.

Sam

The marsh was barely a hundred yards from the tide, so don't act like it was some desolate wasteland. And it wasn't the damp that made me cranky; it was you, constantly whining because your boots were too tight. You're just trying to rewrite it so you look like the sensible one. If you recall, you were the one who almost tripped on the third landing because you were too busy looking for crabs. The fog was fine. It was the only time the house felt quiet. Besides, the view from the top was better than that gray nothingness you call a vista.

Marc

A hundred yards? It was practically a swamp, Sam. You just say that because you want to pretend it was a picturesque little coastal retreat. And it wasn't just my boots—the leather was practically peeling off the soles by the second year. You wouldn't know about that because you were always too busy being a martyr. You'd sit there in the silence, looking all thoughtful, while I was actually trying to navigate the mud. That view from the top was just looking at more fog. It was empty. You always preferred the illusion of something happening to the actual truth.

Sam

It wasn't an illusion, it was just a different perspective. You call it empty because you couldn't find anything to grab onto. You always needed something solid under your feet, something to kick. Most of the time, you were just kicking the dirt to make noise. And don't start with the martyr thing. Someone had to keep an eye on the horizon so you didn't wander off into a bog. If it were purely about truth, you'd admit the house was basically sinking. But you'd rather talk about leather soles than the fact that the foundation was practically mush.

Marc

The house was sinking because we didn't have the money to fix the drainage, not because the earth was magical. You always loved that pseudo-intellectual defense, acting like a structural failure was just a "different perspective." And don't act like you were our sentry. You were just staring at nothing, lost in your own head, while I was the one making sure we didn't lose everything to the silt. If you'd been as observant as you claim, you would've seen the cracks before they opened up. You just prefer the idea of the horizon over the reality of the mud.

Sam

Money wasn't the only issue, and you know it. Dad spent more on those expensive binoculars than he did on the gravel for the driveway. You're acting like you were some sort of architect when you were barely tall enough to reach the door handle. You'd jump at the slightest sound and then pretend you were just inspecting the woodwork. It was always easier to blame the "sentinel" for being too quiet than to admit you were the one who couldn't stand a moment of stillness. It wasn't just the silt, though. The whole place felt like it was being swallowed.

Marc

The binoculars were his one luxury, and you know it. He wouldn't have bought them if he hadn't thought he'd find something worth seeing. And you're right, I was a child, but at least I wasn't pretending to be a philosopher. You'd sit there, perfectly still, as if your silence could somehow stabilize the ground. It was unnerving. You used that stillness to make everyone else feel loud, like you were the only one who truly understood the gravity of the situation. It was a performance. We weren't being swallowed; we were just living in a house that was slowly being reclaimed.

Sam

It wasn't a performance. It was just that people kept talking, and there wasn't much else to say. You always thought silence was some sort of weapon, but it was just a way to breathe. And saying he bought those binoculars to find something worth seeing—that's a stretch. He just wanted to see if the tide was coming in. You're making it sound like he was searching for some great revelation. It was just a hobby. You always did the most with the least. You took a simple habit and turned it into a grand drama just so you could have something to complain about later.

Marc

He wanted to see something better than us, Sam. Don't deny it. He'd sit there for hours, squinting at the gray, waiting for something to break the monotony. And you're right, it was a hobby, but it was a hobby born out of a need to escape the house, to escape the damp. You call it breathing, but you used that silence to make us all feel like we were intruding on something sacred. It was a heavy way to live. I was just trying to keep the conversation going so we didn't all sink into the floorboards together.

Sam

That's a terrible thing to say. He wasn't looking for something better than us; he was just looking. Why does everything have to be a slight against someone? You're so quick to turn a quiet moment into a grand betrayal. And the conversation wasn't for us, it was for you. You talked because the quiet made you restless. You needed the noise to feel like you were making progress. It wasn't sacred to me, it was just the way it was. You're still trying to find the motive in everything, like there's some hidden script we're all following.

Marc

Because without a motive, why do anything? You can't just exist in a vacuum of "it was just the way it was." That's just a lazy way to avoid looking at the friction. He was looking for something else, even if it was just a moment of clarity away from the rust and the salt. And you're right, the noise was for me. It was for us. If we didn't talk, we'd have been swallowed by that stillness you loved so much. You call it a betrayal, but it was just survival. You made it easy to be the one who had to keep things moving.

Sam

Survival? You were just trying to keep the air moving because you couldn't stand the weight of it. It's funny how you frame your restlessness as a selfless service to the family. You weren't saving us; you were just making sure you weren't the only one heard. And you're wrong about the vacuum. Things happen without a grand purpose. The tide comes in, the rust spreads, people grow old. It doesn't need a motive to be real. You've spent your whole life looking for the "why" in every little breeze, but sometimes a window is just a window, and a man is just a man sitting in a chair.

Marc

A man sitting in a chair is still a man with a mind, Sam. To say he was just sitting there, without a thought of where he was or what he was missing, is to strip the life out of him. You want everything to be flat and simple so you don't have to deal with the complexity of actually caring. It’s easier to pretend there’s no subtext than to acknowledge the tension that held us together. You think the silence was natural, but it was a void we had to navigate. I didn't just talk to be heard; I talked so we wouldn't disappear.

Sam

You make it sound so much more heroic to be the one who talked. As if we were all floating away into nothingness without your constant chatter. It wasn't a void, Marc. It was just the space between things. You want to believe the tension was some invisible thread, some cosmic glue, but it was just the way the house felt. You're so afraid of a simple, quiet existence that you have to invent these grand struggles to justify the effort. He wasn't missing anything. He was just there. He was just being. You would have been fine if you’d just let him be.

Marc

Let him be? He was already being. You’re trying to make it sound like he was a statue, something static that just existed in a vacuum. But a man is a living thing, and he had needs, even if they were just the need to look at a horizon that wasn't our own backyard. You call it "the space between things" to make it sound poetic, but it was just empty. You always were better at naming things than actually feeling the weight of them. If he was just being, why did he look so lonely every time he sat down?

Sam

He wasn't lonely. He was just alone, which is a different thing entirely. You always mistake a man's silence for some sort of profound sadness, like he's waiting for a violin to start playing. He was just sitting there. It’s your own need for drama that projects that loneliness onto him. You think if he wasn't suffering or searching, then the moment didn't matter. It’s exhausting, really. You’d rather he be a tragic figure than just an old man with a hobby. If he were lonely, he would have said something. He didn't need you to translate his silence for him.

Marc

He didn't need a translation because he didn't have anyone to translate it to. That’s the part you always miss. He didn't say anything because he thought he was being understood, or maybe he just didn't think it mattered. You call it projection, but you’re the one who needs him to be a simple, contented man just so you can feel settled. It’s easier to pretend there was no tragedy in that house than to admit he was drifting away right in front of us. You wanted him to be a statue so you didn't have to watch him change.

Sam

He wasn't drifting away. He was just in the room. It’s convenient for you to think of him as some ghost fading into the mist so you can play the one who stayed behind to witness the tragedy. You were the one who wanted the swell of the music. If you’d admitted he was just old and tired, you wouldn't have felt the need to make every quiet moment a heavy, existential crisis. He was right there. He was always right there. You just couldn't stand that he didn't need your constant, frantic validation to exist. He was a person, not a puzzle to be solved.

Marc

He was a person, but he was a person who lived in a house that felt like it was dissolving. You call it "being there," but you could have been a foot away and still been leagues apart from him. It's easy for you to say he was just old and tired, but you used that as a shield. If he was just tired, then you didn't have to worry about the depth of his silence. You made it about his frailty so you wouldn't have to face his distance. And don't act like my "frantic validation" was the only thing keeping him anchored. Sometimes, someone has to notice the drift.

Sam

You notice the drift because you need a direction to sail in. If you weren't always looking for a change in the current, you wouldn't have felt so much tension. It's funny how you talk about him being leagues away when he was right in front of you, and we were right there too. You think your observation was a rescue mission, but he was the one who set the course. He knew where he was going. You just couldn't keep up with the pace of it, so you called it drifting. It wasn't about distance, Marc. It was about the fact that you couldn't reach him.

Marc

He knew where he was going? He was sitting in a chair looking at a gray horizon, Sam. It's a bit much to call that a course. You always loved to frame his detachment as some sort of purposeful journey, as if he had some grand destination in mind. It makes it more palatable, doesn't it? If he was sailing, he wasn't just lost. But you're right about one thing—it was hard to reach him. Not because he was too far, but because he made sure the distance was there. He kept it as a buffer, and you just let him.

Sam

He kept the distance because he wanted it. It wasn't some tactical maneuver to keep us at bay. He just had his own thoughts to tend to. You call it "lost," but he was exactly where he wanted to be. You just think someone is lost if they aren't constantly moving toward something you can see. You want a destination you can map, something with a clear heading. To you, a man sitting in a chair is a man without purpose, but he was just living his life. You always did have a hard time with a quiet, purposeless Tuesday. It's not a tragedy; it's just life.

Marc

A "purposeless Tuesday." You make it sound like he was just waiting for the clock to run out. To you, if a man isn't striving or changing or making a mark, he’s just idling. But idling can be a slow kind of disappearance. You call it "living his life," but it looked a lot like he was just waiting for the tide to take the house. You always did have a hard time with the messy parts—the parts where people don't have a clear heading or a reason for being. It's easier to call it "life" than to admit he was fading.

Sam

He wasn't fading. He was just finished with the things that needed doing. It’s your need to see a struggle in every quiet moment that makes it look like a disappearance. If there isn't a fight or a climb or a great transformation, you think it's a loss. But he wasn't a project to be completed, Marc. You wanted him to have a "reason for being" that fit into your neat little categories of progress. To you, if he wasn't battling the tide, he was losing to it. He wasn't being swallowed; he was just arriving at the end of his day. That’s enough.

Marc

He was always right there, but you'd rather believe he was just "finishing" than admit he was slipping. It's a much cleaner story for you. If he was just arriving at the end of his day, then you didn't have to deal with the grief of him leaving us behind in the first place. You’ve always been able to turn a loss into a natural conclusion, as if that makes it any less heavy. It’s the easy way out, Sam. You call it "enough" because you can't bear the thought that he might have been lonely, even if it was a quiet sort of loneliness.

Sam

It wasn't an easy way out to watch him go. You make it sound like a choice, like I just handed him a ticket and waved goodbye. But you were the one who made it heavy. You carried the grief like a heavy coat, constantly adjusting it so everyone could see how much it weighed. If he was lonely, he was his own company. You can't blame us for not being the cure for a loneliness he didn't ask to be cured of. You wanted him to be a mountain to climb, but he was just a man. You keep trying to make the end of a life a grand, sweeping gesture.

Marc

You're so quick to call it a "choice" just to make my grief look like a performance. It wasn't about wanting him to be a mountain; it was about the fact that a mountain doesn't just vanish into the fog without leaving a hole in the landscape. You call it a "heavy coat," but you're the one who always wore the white linen, acting as if nothing could ever touch you. He was a man, yes, but he was our father. If he was fine with his own company, he could have told us. Instead, he just let the silence grow until it was the only thing left in the room.

Sam

He didn't need to tell us. He lived it. He lived it right in front of us, and you just found the silence inconvenient because you couldn't fill it with your own voice. You say he left a hole, but you're the one who's been trying to fill that hole with these arguments for years. It’s almost like you need the emptiness to be a void so you can feel the wind. And don't talk about the linen; you were the one who insisted on the most expensive, impractical fabrics for every Sunday dinner. He didn't leave us behind. He just stopped needing the noise.

Marc

The linen was for the occasion, Sam. It was for showing respect, not just for the sake of being fancy. But you always did have a way of making a little elegance look like an indulgence. And you're right, the silence was inconvenient. It was heavy. It was like the air was getting thicker every year, pressing against the walls. You think it was a choice, but for us, it was just the atmosphere we had to breathe. You could live in the quiet because you were content to just drift. The rest of us were left trying to figure out where we stood when the ground finally gave way.

Sam

You were never the one trying to figure out where you stood; you were too busy making sure everyone noticed your footing. You call it "the atmosphere," but you acted as if you were the one holding up the roof while the rest of us were just wandering through the dust. And don't act like my being content was a passive thing. It was a decision to not fight the elements every single second. You think you were the only one with something to lose when the ground gave way, but some of us were already standing on solid ground. We just didn't need to shout about it.

Marc

Solid ground? You were standing on a shifting marsh and pretending it was granite just so you didn't have to admit your feet were wet. It's the ultimate arrogance, Sam—to act like you were perfectly stable while everyone else was treading water. You didn't need to shout because you didn't want anyone to hear you breathing too loud, lest they realize you were just as lost as the rest of us. You made a virtue of your stillness, but it was really just a way to avoid the mess of actually being alive. You weren't on solid ground; you were just too still to fall.

Sam

You think stillness is a lack of movement, but it’s actually the only way to keep from being swept away. You call it arrogance, but it was just balance. You were so busy splashing and waving your arms to prove you were "alive" that you didn't even notice the water was only ankle-deep. It’s easy to call someone lost because they aren't running in circles. If you'd spent less time watching my feet and more time watching the horizon, you might have understood that the ground didn't need to be granite to be real. We weren't treading water; we were just standing.

Marc

Ankle-deep? We both know the water reached the porch steps on the bad nights. You always loved to minimize the depth just to make my struggle look ridiculous. You call it balance, but it was just a refusal to engage. If you were just standing, then why the constant, quiet vigil? You’d sit there as if the world might tip if you moved an inch. It was a heavy sort of peace, Sam. It required everyone else to move around you, carefully, so as not to disturb your perfect, static little reality. You didn't just stand; you occupied the space like a monument.

Sam

The porch steps were a puddle when the tide was high, Marc. Let's not pretend we were in the middle of the Atlantic. And you're right, it was a heavy peace. It was heavy because you kept throwing things into it to see if it would break. You think a monument is something that stands in the way, but it's just something that remains when the wind passes through. You call it "the struggle," but you were just trying to make sure you were the center of the motion. If you’d stopped trying to move everything, you would have realized you were standing on solid ground all along.