Unsupervised

Just Met ·

Open by admitting you're bad at this. Push off from this if it helps: escalators.

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Dev

I'm terrible at this, Jo. I'm just talking too much, aren't I? Escalators are the worst, though. Why do people stand on the left and block everyone? It's a fundamental lack of social decency. I was stuck at the station this morning because some guy in a business suit was just staring at his phone while people piled up behind him. I almost wanted to lose it. I didn't. Anyway, it's so loud in here, can you stop squinting like that? The noise is driving me crazy. I feel like I'm forcing every word.

Jo

I am not squinting. The light is simply aggressive. You are not talking too much, though your obsession with the escalator is tiresome. People do not care about social decency at a station; they are just trying to survive the commute without being touched. I spent four hours in the office today listening to a ventilation system that sounds like a dying animal. It was far worse than this noise. I do not understand why you apologize for your own voice. It is exhausting to be heard when the environment is this chaotic.

Dev

Four hours? That sounds like a special kind of losing your mind. My office is just as bad, just filing files that nobody actually reads. It's not about apologizing for the voice, it's about acknowledging the air is thick. And don't tell me about survival. People are selfish, that's the truth of it. If the environment is chaotic, then just leave it. I can't see why you stay in that noise anyway. Do you hear that humming? It's vibrating through the floor. It feels like the building is trying to shake us out.

Jo

I stay because the rent is paid and I lack the inclination for dramatic choice. The building is not trying to shake us out; it is simply old and poorly maintained. You find meaning where there is only mechanical decay. People are not inherently selfish, they are merely indifferent. There is a difference, though I suppose the distinction. I find the humming quite rhythmic. It fills the silence where people should be saying something meaningful. My office files provide a certain comfort in being overlooked. It is better than being the center of your frantic energy. You are so worried about the air while the floor is literally vibrating.

Dev

Indifference is just selfishness with a better excuse, Jo. You act like being overlooked is comfort, but it's just giving up. I'd rather be frantic than rot in a cubicle. And that humming isn't rhythmic, it's depressing. It's the sound of things failing. I saw a pipe burst in the hallway last week and everyone just walked over the overflowing water. Nobody said anything. That's what I mean talking about. You find meaning in it, but it just gives me a headache. Why are we even standing here if the floor is literally falling apart? It's ridiculous.

Jo

You are being incredibly dramatic. People walked over the water because they did not want to get their shoes wet, not because of some philosophical statement on humanity. It is practical, whereas you see a tragedy in every leaky faucet. We are standing here because we have nowhere else to be at this moment. I am not giving up; I am observing the reality of the situation. Your frantic energy is just a way to avoid the boredom. The floor is not falling apart, it is settling into its age. If you have a headache, perhaps you should sit down. It is exhausting to watch you get so angry at plumbing.

Dev

Practicality is a mask for being lazy. You call it reality, I call it a world where nobody gives a damn anymore. And I'm not sitting down just because you find me exhausting. It's not about the plumbing, it's about the fact that everything is slowly coming apart and we're just pretending it's fine. "Settling into its age"—what a poetic way to describe slow decay. I could quit my job months ago, but someone has to just set the building on fire. This noise is getting louder, or maybe my ears are deening.

Jo

You would not set anything on fire. You would simply complain about the smoke before you actually struck a match. Your desire to be a martyr for the mundane is becoming increasingly predictable. The noise is not getting louder; your perception is becoming more sensitive to it. It is a strange thing to view a decaying building as a personal insult. I once knew a man who cried because the local train was five minutes late. He thought the universe was conspiring against him. You are doing the same thing with a floor. The world is not coming apart. You are just overwhelmed by the sheer existence of things. It is quite pathetic.

Dev

Pathetic? That's rich coming from someone who finds comfort in being a ghost. At least the man with the train had the decency to feel something strongly. You're just numb. I'm not a martyr, I'm the only one noticing the walls are peeling while you're admiring the wallpaper. The world doesn't come apart with a bang, it happens with people like you debating whether the smoke matches. It's the quiet indifference that's nauseating. You think you're being objective, but you're just bored. I'm tired of being the only alarm. It's exhausting.

Jo

I am not numb; I am simply not interested in performing outrage for your benefit. You want to be the alarm, but no one asked you to wake up. If the walls are peeling, let them peel. It does not change the structure of the room. It is exhausting to listen to someone deconstruct the world every five minutes because they cannot handle a bit of of quietude. You find indifference nauseating because it forces you to face your own lack of a purpose. If you are so exhausted, then stop talking. I will stay here in the silence. It is much more honest than your constant agitation.

Dev

Silence isn't honest, it's just a void. You want to sit there and pretend the world isn't moving? Fine. Go ahead. I'm not performing for you anyway. If I liked the silence, I'd be back home, not here. My purpose is clearly to be the only one brave enough to look at the mess. You can stay in your quiet corner. I'll be here actually noticing that the floor is tilting. Did you see that light flicker? Not in a weird way. It makes the shadows dancing. It's making me want to leave.

Jo

The floor is not tilting. You are merely unsteady. You search for drama in a flickering bulb because you cannot stand the thought of being ordinary. If you want to leave, then go. There is no one stopping you. The shadows are not dancing; they are moving because the light is failing. It is a mechanical failure, not a theatrical performance. I find the flickering quite honest. It reveals the constant state of the infrastructure. You see a reason to flee, I see a loose wire that needs to be replaced. You are always waiting for a catastrophe that will never arrive.

Dev

A loose wire is the start of a fire, Jo. You're so obsessed with the "how" that you forget the "why." "Mechanical failure"—that's your favorite phrase, isn't it? Everything is a machine. I'm not waiting for a catastrophe, I'm watching it happen in increments. You think you're being rational, but you're just cold. If the light goes out, you'll just sit there in the dark and compliment the darkness. I'll be the one looking for the match. At least I'll have a reaction when the world actually stops. This place is suffoc.

Jo

I would sit in the dark because the darkness does not demand my constant commentary. Your need for a match is just a fear of being alone with your thoughts. It is not cold to acknowledge that a wire is a wire; it is accurate. You want a "why" because the "how" is too boring for you to endure. You find this place suffocating because you are taking up all the oxygen with your panic. If the light goes out, I will simply wait for my eyes to adjust. I do not need a fire to see the room. It is exhausting to be your audience.

Dev

Then stop being the audience. Walk away. You love the idea of being the detached observer, watching everything play out so you don't have to deal with the fact that you're just as stuck. "Accurate" is just a shield for being empty. You think waiting for your eyes to adjust is wisdom, but you're just staring at the same four gray walls. My head actually hurts from this conversation, and the noise is still deafening. If I'm so exhausting, go find another corner. I'm not going to keep keeping you company while you celebrate the decay.

Jo

I am not celebrating anything. I am merely existing. You speak of me being stuck, yet you are the one who refuses to leave the conversation. It is a strange paradox to demand I walk away while you continue to insult my presence. If your head hurts, perhaps it is because you are shouting internally with your own tension. I will not find another corner because this one is perfectly adequate as it is. The walls are gray because they are painted, not because I am lacking a soul. If the noise is unbearable, the door is right behind you. I have no intention of facilitating your exit.

Dev

I don't need you to facilitate anything. I'm staying just to see how long you can pretend those gray walls aren't closing in. "Perfectly adequate"—that's the most depressing sentence ever uttered. You've settled for a beige life and you call it a virtue. I'm not shouting internally, I'm reacting to the fact that this room is a tomb for people who are already dead inside. You stay here in your perfect corner and deconstruct the paint chips until you're nothing left. I'd rather have a headache than a flatline. The floor is vibrating again. Can you even feel that?

Jo

I feel the vibration. It is the subway passing beneath the street again. You insist on making every tremor an omen because you cannot handle a world that is indifferent. It is not a beige life; it is a life that does not require a constant performance of passion. You equate pain with meaning because you find peace terrifying. I am not deconstructing the paint chips; I am simply acknowledging that they are old. If this room is a tomb, then you are the one screaming at the walls. I am perfectly content to let the silence settle. It is much more substantial than your constant agitation.

Dev

Peace isn't substantial, it's the absence of life. You call it silence, but it's just the lack of anything worth saying. The subway passes, yeah, and people are actually going somewhere while you're just sitting here watching the dust settle. You think you're being deep, but you're just being stagnant. I'd rather scream at the walls than be a statue in a waiting room. If that's what peace looks like, then you have a very low definition of it. I'm not screaming at the walls; I'm the only one actually reacting to the fact that we're trapped in this. It is pathetic.

Jo

You are not trapped; you chose to stay in this room with me. The subway passengers are going to places just as uninteresting as this one. You find it stagnant to be still, but I find it exhausting to be constantly in motion for no reason. You equate reaction with life, but most reactions are just reflexes to noise. I am not a statue; I simply do not feel the need to vibrate to prove my existence. If peace is a lack of life, then perhaps life is merely unnecessary noise. I will remain here with the dust. It is far more reliable than your frantic demands.

Dev

Reliable? The dust is reliable because it's dead. That's your goal, isn't it? To be as inanimate as possible. You dismiss everything as noise, but the noise is the only thing that proves something is actually happening. If you want to be with the dust, be my guest. I'm tired of trying to explain the world to someone who thinks a gray wall is a masterpiece. It's not a choice, it's a surrender. You call it being still, but I call it a slow-motion giving up. This room is getting smaller, or I'm just getting tired of looking at you.

Jo

The room is not getting smaller. Your focus is simply narrowing. You call it a surrender because you cannot fathom a moment where you are not fighting something. It is not a masterpiece to see a wall; it is simply a wall. If you are tired of looking at me, then look away. I do not require your attention to occupy this space. You are obsessed with the idea of a struggle, yet you cannot even stand still for five minutes. I will be here when you are finished being exhausted. Whether you find that depressing or not is entirely irrelevant to me.

Dev

I can't look away because if I do, I'm lying to myself that everything is fine. You think standing still is a strength, but it's just a lack of momentum. You say you don't need my attention, but you use it to justify being hollow. You'll be here when I'm finished? Right. You'll always be here, in the same spot, waiting for the next thing to happen to you while the rest of the world is rotting beneath you. I'm not fighting, I'm just the only one who cares that the air is running out. Enjoy your dust. I'm done.

Jo

You are never done. You are still standing there, making another dramatic exit. If the air is running out, you should have left ten minutes ago instead of arguing about it. I am not hollow; I am simply not filled with the same trivial anxieties. You think your caring is a gift, but it is mostly a burden for everyone around you. Go then, find your subway and your chaos. The world will continue to rot without your supervision. I will still be here, and the dust will still be settled. It is much quieter without your shouting.