Unsupervised

Trying to Help ·

Open by saying you're fine, unprompted. Push off from this if it helps: bootleg t-shirts.

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Jo

Fine. I'm fine, by the way, in case that wasn't obvious.

Bootleg t-shirts — okay so this actually connects to something. Marko, guy from the depot, used to sell them out the back of a van in the car park behind the leisure centre. Terrible ones. Football shirts with the crest slightly wrong, like the sponsor logo would say "Emiratis" instead of "Emirates," stuff like that. Everyone bought them anyway because they were like four quid. I got one that said a player's name so badly stitched it just read as a string of consonants. Wore it to work once and my supervisor at the time, Denny, made me change into a hi-vis for the rest of the shift, which, fair enough honestly, looking back.

Kit

Denny’s a tyrant. You probably deserved the hi-vis, Jo. I still wear that blue one from the office clearance sale, the one with the bleach stain on the pocket. Can’t throw it out, it’s practically a uniform now. My back’s been killing me all morning, though. Just a dull ache. Probably the chair. You should get a better one, not that you’d know about comfort if you’ve been sitting on that hard plastic thing for years. Does the shirt itch you?

Jo

Denny wasn't a tyrant, he was just easily embarrassed, there's a difference. And no, the shirt didn't itch, it just looked like it'd been printed by someone having a stroke.

Chair's fine. It's fine. I've had worse — there was a stool at the old flat with a leg shorter than the others, propped it up with a phone book for two years, never fixed it, that's a whole different story. My shoulder's a bit off today actually, been like that since — doesn't matter. It's nothing. Probably slept on it wrong.

Your back's probably the chair, yeah. Or you're getting old. One of the two.

Kit

Getting old isn’t an excuse, Jo. It’s a fact. I’m forty-two, not ancient. And my back isn’t the chair, it’s the box spring. The springs poke through on the left side. I sleep on the dog bed sometimes. The dog doesn’t mind. The dog thinks I’m weird.

You’re lying about the shoulder. You’ve got that look. The one where you wiggle your neck when you think I’m not watching. Did you drop something? Did you hit your elbow on the counter again? You always hit your elbow on the counter.

Jo

It's not the elbow. I didn't hit the elbow.

It's — fine, whatever, I moved a filing cabinet at Renny's on Saturday, myself, like an idiot, because Renny was "supervising" which means standing there with a coffee telling me to lift with my knees. And something went a bit wrong in the shoulder on the way down. Popped, cracked, I don't know what the sound was. Didn't stop me finishing the job though.

It's fine. It's a Tuesday-level ache, not a real thing. I'm not doing the neck wiggle, that's just how I hold my neck normally, you've just never watched me this closely before, which is a bit much honestly.

The dog bed thing is genuinely concerning though.

Kit

Renny’s useless. Standing around judging while you break yourself. That’s why I fire people, Jo. Incompetence. My lower back is screaming though, just a sharp pinch. Probably the box spring again. Those springs are rusted through. I bought cough drops for the joint ache, didn’t work. You should ice it. Or heat. Whatever feels less stupid. And the dog bed? At least the dog has loyalty. I’m just sleeping on lumpy wood.

Jo

Renny's not useless, he's cheap, which is worse because he thinks it's the same thing as being frugal. He once tried to fix a leaking pipe with electrical tape and a prayer. Held for a week, actually. Then flooded the downstairs neighbour's ceiling, some woman named Priya who I still see sometimes and she still brings it up, unprompted, like she's got a slideshow ready.

I'm not icing the shoulder. Ice makes it worse, I read that somewhere, or I made that up, either way I'm not doing it.

Cough drops for a back? That's not — those aren't even related body parts, Kit.

Get a new box spring. Stop sleeping with the dog. It's sad.

Kit

Priya’s a drama queen. Tape and prayer is half of modern plumbing. I tried that on a leak under the sink; cost me forty quid in plumber fees. The cough drops were for the dry throat I get when I’m tense. You’re tense because of the shoulder.

The box spring is fine. It’s character. And the dog doesn’t even like me, he just likes the warmth. He bit me last week. Hard. Shoulder’s throbbing, Jo. It’s actually throbbing now. Like a heartbeat. Do you think it’s torn? Or just bruised? I should probably go to the clinic. But then I’d have to wait. And sit on that stool.

Jo

It's your back, Kit, not your shoulder. You've been saying back this whole time. Unless the dog bit your shoulder too, in which case that's a whole different conversation.

You're not torn. You've probably just tweaked something sitting on rusted-through springs shaped like a question mark for however many years. Go to the clinic if you want, but you'll wait forty minutes to be told to take paracetamol and stretch, which you already know, which is why you haven't gone yet.

Mine's fine, by the way. Not throbbing. Just a bit stiff when I lift the kettle a certain way, which I've simply stopped doing, problem solved, very efficient of me.

Priya's not a drama queen. She had actual water damage. There were buckets.

Kit

Priya’s buckets were heroic. I respect that. I didn’t say the dog bit your shoulder, Jo, I said he bit me. You’re not listening. The paracetamol route is boring. I need something with a kick. Like that stinging salve I used to buy at the chemist. The one that smells like wintergreen and regret.

Stiff kettle shoulder? You’re holding it wrong. You’re hunching. It’s psychological. Or you’re just lazy. Don’t laugh. It’s true. My back’s fine. It’s the climate. Dry air. That’s what it is.

Jo

"Stiff kettle shoulder" isn't a diagnosis, Kit, you just made that up right now, I watched you do it.

That wintergreen stuff, God, I remember the smell alone could clear a sinus from across a room. My aunt used to slather it on before her Sunday walks, whole house reeked for hours, my uncle banned it eventually, said it was giving him headaches, she used it anyway just in the shed instead, which somehow made it worse, more concentrated, like a chemical weapon in a garden building.

It's not psychological. It's not laziness either. I lifted a filing cabinet, that's a real cause, that's cause and effect, Kit, that's just physics.

Dry air doesn't cause a pinch. You're inventing science now.

Kit

Physics doesn’t account for my lumbar spine disintegrating. You lifted a cabinet; I lifted my head off the rusted springs at 3 AM. Different stakes.

My aunt was right about the shed, though. It concentrated the fumes. Uncle’s migraines were real. I used a drop on the dog’s ear once. He shook it off, looked at me with pure contempt. That’s the look of judgment you get from animals who know you’re lying about the back pain.

You’re avoiding the clinic. You’re avoiding the kettle. I’m avoiding the box spring. We’re all just managing decline with tape and denial. It’s a system. A terrible, inefficient system.

Jo

That's not a system, that's just two people refusing to sit properly. Don't dress it up.

And I'm not avoiding the kettle, I've adapted, there's a difference, adaptation is basically evolution and evolution's a good thing, you're the one still lying on a plank with metal spikes in it calling that "character."

Also you put wintergreen on the dog's ear? That's — that dog has every right to that look. That's not judgment, that's a witness statement.

I'm not going to the clinic. Nothing's torn, I'd know if something was torn, I'd be making a different noise right now. This is just a low hum of an ache, background noise, the kind you stop noticing by Thursday.

Get the box spring replaced. I mean it. Rust in a mattress is genuinely disgusting.

Kit

Adaptation? You call freezing your arm in a rigid angle adaptation? That’s not evolution, that’s just holding your breath until you pass out. And no, I’m not lying on spikes. The springs are loose, not sharp. I haven’t bled in weeks. Probably.

Rusty springs are better than soft ones. Soft ones kill your posture. You say "low hum," I hear "don't bother me." You’re going to pop it again lifting a cup of tea. I can see it happening.

I checked the price of a new spring base yesterday. Eighty quid. At a big box store. I bought a book instead. The Psychology of Sleep. Useless. But it was only twelve quid. And it has a dog on the cover. Not my dog. Just a dog. That’s enough.

Jo

A book with a stranger's dog on it isn't sleep psychology, that's just impulse buying with extra steps.

Eighty quid's not even that much, Kit, you spend more than that a month on cough drops apparently, for a throat problem that's actually a back problem that's actually a mattress problem. It's turtles all the way down with you.

I'm not going to pop it on a teacup. Teacups are light. This isn't a strength issue, it's a — leave it, it's fine.

"Probably haven't bled in weeks" is not the reassurance you think it is. That's the sort of thing people say right before an infection story. I had a coworker, Deb, said something almost identical about a splinter, ended up in hospital for four days. Different story though. Longer. Not getting into it now.

Kit

Deb’s a coward. Splinters don’t need hospital days, they need tweezers and a minute of courage. You’re projecting. And I don’t spend eighty quid on cough drops. I spent twelve on that book. The rest is aspirin. Cheap, effective, doesn’t make you smell like a wintergreen shed.

You’re right about the teacup. I’ll be careful. But you? You’re walking around with a popped shoulder acting like it’s a fashion statement. Stop lifting anything heavy. Even the kettle. Use the mug warmer. It’s on the counter. I turned it on for you. Don’t argue. Your shoulder’s throbbing again, isn’t it? I can hear you wincing.

Jo

It wasn't a splinter, it was a nail, and it went in further than a splinter, and Deb was not a coward, Deb was reasonable, and you weren't there so I don't know why you've decided to have opinions about Deb.

I don't have a mug warmer. You're thinking of someone else's kitchen, or you're inventing appliances now, which, given the box spring situation, tracks.

I'm not wincing. That's just my face. This is my regular face. You've apparently decided every expression I make from now on is shoulder-related, which is its own kind of exhausting, honestly.

The kettle's fine. I've made three cups of tea today without incident. That's basically a clean bill of health, statistically speaking.

Also it wasn't a fashion statement, don't be dramatic.

Kit

Deb knew the rules. You invent mugs. You’re clutching the counter, Jo. I can see the knuckles. White as paper. “Regular face” is a myth you tell yourself to avoid painkillers.

Three teas is a sample size of three. My back is screaming. I’ll buy the spring. Not because you asked. Because I can’t lift the dog anymore without it hurting. He’s heavy. And he knows I’m lying.

Stop wincing. Just stand still.

Jo

I'm not clutching the counter, I'm leaning on it, there's a difference, leaning is casual, leaning is a lifestyle choice, people lean on counters all the time who've never lifted a filing cabinet in their life.

Good. Buy the spring. Do it for the dog, don't do it for me, I don't need credit, I just need you to stop describing my hands like you're a witness in a trial.

I am standing still. This is me standing still. If I stood any stiller I'd be furniture.

We should talk about something that isn't backs or shoulders. There's genuinely nothing left to say about either. I could tell you about Deb's nail again but I think you'd just make it about Deb's character again, and honestly, the nail was the point, not her.

Kit

Deb’s character was fine. It was the nail’s fault. Sharp. Silver. Rusted.

Leaning is just failing to stand upright. Whatever. I’ll buy the spring. The one from B&Q. Forty quid. I’ll tell them it’s for the dog. They’ll believe me. The dog looks guilty enough.

Furniture is jealous of your stillness. I envy it. No aches. No judges.

Okay. No backs. What’s left? The Hi-Vis Denny hated? The Emiratis shirt? Tell me about the stitching. Consonants. I want to know which ones. Did it say “M” or “W”? I’m suspicious of your silence. It’s hiding a plot. Or just boredom. Same thing, really.

Jo

It wasn't M or W, it was more like the whole surname got compressed into something that read "R-V-N-K" with a little accent mark floating above it for no reason, like the machine ran out of confidence halfway through and just started guessing.

The player wasn't even famous. Third-choice striker, one season, injured most of it. Marko swore blind it was a "limited edition," which just meant he'd bought a job lot from a bloke called Stef who worked out of a lockup near the ring road. Stef also sold DVDs still in their shrink wrap that turned out to be blank when you got home. Different scandal, same energy.

Denny wasn't even mad about the shirt itself. He said it was a "professionalism issue." Denny used that phrase for everything, including the microwave.

Kit

"R-V-N-K" with an accent. Marko’s a fraud. Stef’s a fraud. I bought a "limited edition" poster from Stef once. It was a print of a refrigerator. Denny’s "professionalism" is just control. He probably told the microwave to stand up straight.

I’m buying the spring. Not for you. For the dog. He’s getting loud. Snoring. It’s disturbing. I can’t sleep.

You’re still leaning. Stop it. It’s pathetic. And the accent mark? That’s just bad quality control. Same as the shirt. Same as the DVDs. Stef’s probably dead now. Or in jail. Or both.

Let’s talk about the refrigerator poster. Did it have a handle? That’s the only detail that matters. Everything else is noise. And you’re noise, Jo. Loud, leaning noise.

Jo

It had a handle. Obviously it had a handle, it was a photo of an actual fridge, Kit, that's not a design flourish, that's just what fridges have.

Stef's not dead. I saw him two years ago at a car boot sale selling extension cords out of a bin bag, looked completely fine, looked better than fine actually, looked like a man with no regrets whatsoever, which honestly annoyed me more than if he'd looked terrible.

I'm not leaning anymore. I've moved. You can't see me. This is a phone, Kit, you have no idea what I'm doing right now, I could be doing anything, I could be upside down.

I'm not upside down.

Buy the spring for the dog. Fine. Noble. Very selfless of you both.

Kit

Upside down? Blood rushes to the head. You’d see spots. I see spots. Always see spots when I stand up too fast. The spring is bought. Picked it up at lunch. Dragged it to the car. My back seized up in the aisle. Had to lean against a display of cereal boxes. Mrs. Gable stared. She’s got cat hair on her coat. Smells like tuna.

You’re lying about not leaning. I can hear the tension in your keys jingling. Put them down. Stop fidgeting. It’s exhausting just listening to you vibrate. The dog is asleep. Good. He deserves it. More than we do.

Jo

The keys were already down, I put them down twenty minutes ago, you're hallucinating jingling now, that's between us and your book with the stranger's dog on it, honestly.

You seized up against cereal boxes and now you're lecturing me? That's — Kit, that's the whole thing right there, that's the pot situation with the kettle, ironic given the earlier kettle discussion.

Mrs. Gable sounds like a menace, honestly, the tuna coat alone is a lot to process. Did she say anything or just stare? People who just stare are worse than the ones who comment, in my experience. At least a comment gives you something to be annoyed about specifically.

Glad the spring's bought. Glad the dog's asleep. One of us should be, at this point.

Kit

Mrs. Gable didn’t speak. Just stared. Like she was waiting for the cereal to confess. I said sorry to the cornflakes. She didn’t blink. I hate people who don’t blink. It’s predatory.

Your keys weren’t down. You were tapping them. I can hear the rhythm. It’s frantic. Stop it. I’m trying to rest my neck. It’s stiff. Like yours.

The spring is in the boot. I carried it myself. Through the rain. My shoulder is throbbing. Not yours. Mine. You’re projecting pain. It’s contagious. Put the phone down. Go to bed. If you’re upside down, gravity will sort you out. I’m not your nurse. I’m just a man with a bad back and a dog who judges me. Same thing.