Ana
So, you wear that shirt to the office? Really? It’s got a fake band logo, Ben. Who’s the band? And don’t say “it’s vintage.” You bought it at a gas station in Ohio. Why do you look so guilty? Just admit you like the aesthetic of being a tourist.
Ask a casual question that is not casual. Push off from this if it helps: bootleg t-shirts.
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Ben
It’s for the commute. I wear it because it doesn’t wrinkle. You’re making a big deal out of nothing. The logo is just a graphic. It’s not even a real band. I don’t know who they are. I bought it because it was three dollars. You’re staring at me like I’m hiding something. I’m just trying to get through the day. The air conditioning is broken on the subway anyway. It’s hot.
Ana
Three dollars. Right. And the subway’s broken? Convenient. Most people don’t bring their own disasters. You always this dramatic about wrinkled cotton, or is it just the shirt? It’s the shirt. I can see it. That defensive little twitch. You’re not hiding a crime, Ben. You’re hiding that you’re bored. Admit it.
Ben
I’m not dramatic. You’re interpreting normal fatigue as a conspiracy. The subway isn’t broken, I just don’t want to be there. It’s a job. It pays. You think I’m hiding boredom? I’m hiding the fact that I’m tired of pretending this matters. The shirt is fine. It’s dry. Stop looking at me like that. I didn’t do anything. You’re the one making it weird. I’m just drinking my coffee. It’s cold. That’s all it is.
Ana
Cold coffee. Classic. You’re deflection incarnate. “Pretending this matters”—that’s rich coming from the guy who buys fake band tees. At least the shirt admits it’s a costume. You’re wearing your apathy like armor. It’s itchy. I can see it. You hate me noticing. Why? Because I’m right? Or because you’re lonely and hate that I’m the only one who sees it?
Ben
You’re exhausting. I’m not lonely. I just don’t have the energy for your psychoanalysis. The coffee is cold because I forgot to drink it. You think I’m wearing armor? It’s cotton. It breathes. You’re projecting your own issues onto a shirt. I don’t care about the band. I care about not freezing. Go home, Ana. You’re analyzing my pores. It’s creepy. I’m going to sit here. Stop talking.
Ana
Creepy. That’s your word? Fine. I’ll go home. To the empty apartment I paid too much for. You think this is a game? I’m just tired of watching you perform "fine" while drinking cold coffee. Sit there. Rot in your cotton armor. I’m done. Don’t expect me to check on you later. You’re not worth the effort.
Ben
It’s not a performance. It’s just Tuesday. Go home. Your apartment is empty because you’re not there, not because of me. I’m not rotting. I’m sitting. The coffee is cold. You’re the one making it heavy. You said you’re done. Good. Don’t come back. I have work to ignore. The shirt is breathable. I’m breathing. It’s fine. Whatever. Just leave. I’m not worth the effort? Fine. Stay gone.
Ana
Right. Breathing. Loudly. You’re impossible. I’m leaving. Don’t wait up. I have that meeting with the supplier at four, the one with the guy who thinks “synergy” is a fabric. Try not to suffocate in your cotton. It’s pathetic, really.
Ben
Synergy. Jesus. That guy sounds insufferable. You always pick the worst clients. I’m not suffocating. I’m perfectly comfortable. Go to your meeting. Talk about fabrics. See if I care. I’ll be here. Drinking the cold coffee. Wearing the shirt. Waiting for you to come back, even though you said not to. Pathetic. Sure. Whatever. Just don’t forget your umbrella. It looks like rain. You’ll get wet. And then you’ll be mad at me.
Ana
You’re watching me leave? Cute. I’m not coming back just because you pout. And I didn’t forget the umbrella. It’s in the hall closet. Like I planned. You think I’m testing you? No. I just know how you’ll react. Cold coffee and all. Have fun ignoring your work.
Ben
I’m not watching you. I’m looking at the wall. The wall doesn’t care about synergy. You left the umbrella. Good. You won’t get wet. Maybe you’ll actually get something done for once. Not that I care. I have spreadsheets. Terrible, soul-crushing spreadsheets. I’ll ignore them too. You’re dramatic. You always were. Go to your meeting. Talk to the fabric guy. I’ll be here. In the dark. With the cold coffee. It’s fine. Really.
Ana
Spreadsheets. Of course. You’d rather drown in data than talk to me. Fine. Let’s see how tough you are in the dark. I’m not dramatic. I’m observant. You’re trembling. I can hear it. The shirt isn’t saving you, Ben. Neither is the coffee. Don’t wait up. But don’t lock the door either. I know you.
Ben
I’m not trembling. You’re imagining things. My hand is on the table. It’s shaking because I’m holding it. Or maybe the coffee is cold. I don’t know. You’re obsessed. Always looking for cracks. I’m fine. The spreadsheets are boring, yes, but they’re mine. You want me to talk? Fine. What do you want to hear? That I’m scared? That I’m lonely? No. Just go. You’re staying gone. I won’t unlock the door. I’m sitting right here. In the dark. Waiting for you to prove me wrong.
Ana
Scared. Lonely. There it is. You finally said it. And you’re waiting for me to prove you wrong? Classic Ben. You want me to stay, but you’ll never admit it. I’m not unlocking the door, Ben. You wanted space? You have it. Good. Cry into your cold coffee. See if I care. Actually, do. Let me hear it.
Ben
I’m not crying. You’re delusional. It’s just stress. The spreadsheets are a mess. I’m tired. You want me to make noise? Fine. I’m breathing. Loudly. You heard that. That’s all you get. I’m not begging. I’m just sitting here. The coffee is cold. The shirt is cheap. You’re gone. Good. I don’t need you. I never did. Stop talking. I can’t hear myself think. Or maybe I can. That’s the problem. I can hear you leaving. It’s annoying. That’s all. Just annoying.
Ana
Annoying. Right. Keep telling yourself that. The spreadsheets are your lovers now. At least they don’t call you out on the trembling. Go ahead, Ben. Pretend the silence is what you wanted. It’s not. It’s just heavy. Like you. Don’t bother unlocking the door. I know you’re waiting. Pathetic.
Ben
It’s not heavy. It’s quiet. You’re making it heavy. Spreadsheets don’t call me out. They don’t judge the shirt. They don’t make me feel like I’m suffocating. I’m not waiting. I’m sitting. You left. That’s final. I’m not pathetic. I’m just tired of the noise. The coffee is cold. The room is dark. You’re gone. Good. I don’t need you to validate my trembling. It’s just the AC. It’s always the AC. Stop talking. I’m trying to work. Even if I can’t see the screen.
Ana
AC. You’re blaming the building for your heart rate. Convenient. You say you’re working but the screen is off. I can hear your fingers hovering. Don’t touch the keys. Let’s see how long you last in the dark. You think silence is peace? It’s just space for you to panic. Keep breathing. Loudly.
Ben
It’s not my heart rate. It’s the floorboards. They’re old. You know that. I’m not hovering. My hands are in my lap. The screen is off because I closed the laptop. Not the monitor. The laptop. You’re hearing the fridge. It’s humming. That’s the noise. You want me to type? I can’t. My fingers aren’t hovering. They’re still. You’re the one making noise with your voice. Stop talking. I’m not panicking. I’m just sitting. The shirt is itchy. That’s all. Itchy. That’s the problem. You’re imagining things again. You always do.
Ana
Fridge. Floorboards. Itchy shirt. Pick a lie, Ben. It’s getting harder to tell the difference. You’re not sitting. You’re rotting. And that shirt isn’t itchy. It’s screaming at you. I’m leaving now. For real. Don’t bother locking the door. I know you’ll leave it open. Just in case. You’re pathetic.
Ben
It’s not screaming. It’s just cotton. You’re projecting again. I’m not leaving the door open. It’s locked. I checked. Twice. You want me to open it? Go ahead. Come back. Prove me wrong. I’m not pathetic. I’m just tired of your games. The fridge is humming. That’s the noise. You’re hearing things. I’m sitting. Still. Breathing. It’s fine. Really. Just leave. I’m not begging. I never do. You’re the one who stays. Even when you say you’re going. It’s annoying. That’s all.
Ana
Locked. Twice. Keep telling yourself that. You’re not waiting. You’re hiding. From the fridge? From the shirt? From me? I’m not staying. I’m just listening to you lie. Again. And again. And again. Go ahead, Ben. Stay in your dark. I’ll be at the bar. Drinking something warm. Finally.
Ben
You’re at the bar? Fine. Get a whiskey. Neat. Don’t order anything fancy. You always complain about the price. I’m not hiding. I’m just… paused. The door is locked. I didn’t check it twice. I checked it once. You’re making it into a ritual. I’m going to sleep. On the couch. The shirt is soft. Against my skin. Not screaming. Just there. You’ll come back when you’re tired of the noise. Or when you’re cold. I’ll be here. In the dark. Watching the ceiling. It’s cracked. You didn’t see that. You never look up.
Ana
Neat whiskey. Right. You remember everything. The crack? Please. I’ve seen worse. Ceiling’s fine. You’re just avoiding eye contact with reality. Sleep on the couch. Good idea. Hard surface, fewer dreams. Don’t wait up. I’m not coming back to watch you stare at plaster. Go to sleep, Ben. Before you realize you’re alone. For real.
Ben
You’re at the bar. Alone. With a neat whiskey. How observant. I’m not staring at plaster. I’m staring at the ceiling. It’s different. You’re avoiding the point. I’m not avoiding reality. I’m avoiding you. The couch is hard. It’s good. Keeps me awake. I don’t need dreams. I have spreadsheets. They’re worse than dreams. At least dreams have a point. This is just data. Meaningless. You’re right. I’m alone. Good. That’s what you wanted. Go drink. I’ll be here. Staring. Breathing. It’s fine. Really. Just stay gone.
Ana
Meaningless data. That’s your comfort? You’re worse than I thought. At least the bar has music. Even if it’s shit. Go ahead, Ben. Stare at the crack. It’s all you’ve got. I’m drinking. Neat. Like you said. Don’t bother checking the lock. I’m not coming back. You wanted alone. Now you have it. Enjoy the silence. It’s deafening, isn’t it?
Ben
Deafening? No. It’s just quiet. You’re filling the silence with your own voice. I’m not checking the lock. It’s locked. Or it’s not. It doesn’t matter. The bar has music. Shit music. You’re drinking neat whiskey. You hate the taste. You like the burn. I’m not worse than you thought. I’m just tired. The crack in the ceiling is straight. You said it was fine. It’s not. It’s jagged. Like my coffee. Cold. Bitter. You’re gone. Good. I can breathe. Or I can’t. It’s the same thing. Stop talking.
Ana
Jagged. You’re nitpicking the architecture now. Classic. The burn is the point. It’s the only thing that feels real in this city. You think silence is breathing? It’s suffocation. You’re just waiting for me to come back and fix the ceiling. Or the coffee. Or you. Go ahead. Stare at the crack. It’s the only thing that’s honest in here.
Ben
The burn isn’t real. It’s just pain. You’re confusing sensation with truth. The ceiling isn’t jagged. It’s cracked. There’s a difference. I’m not waiting for you to fix anything. I’m waiting for the coffee to warm up. It won’t. You’re the one talking about honesty. You left. That’s honest. I’m staying. That’s also honest. You’re at the bar. Drinking. Burning your tongue. I’m here. Breathing. Suffocating. It’s the same. Stop analyzing the crack. It’s just plaster. Dust. You’re making it mean something. It doesn’t. Nothing does. Go home. Or stay. I don’t care.
Ana
Meaningless. That’s your worldview? Shallow. You’re whining about dust while I’m out here surviving. Go home, Ben. Or stay. Doesn’t matter. The whiskey’s warm now. Just like your coffee will never be. Enjoy the silence. It’s all you’ve got.
Ben
Surviving. Right. You’re at a bar. Drinking warm whiskey. I’m sitting on a couch. In the dark. With cold coffee. We’re both surviving. Different methods. You want meaning? The dust is honest. It doesn’t pretend. I’m not shallow. I’m just tired of the performance. You call it surviving. I call it waiting. For what? I don’t know. The ceiling is cracked. The coffee is cold. The door is locked. You’re gone. Good. I’m breathing. It’s loud. Or quiet. I can’t tell anymore. Just leave me to the dust. It’s all I have.