Tess
What time is it anyway? This carpet smells like old cigarettes and damp wool. I can't believe we're still here. You think they're actually listening? It's pathetic.
What time is it anyway? This carpet smells like old cigarettes and damp wool. I can't believe we're still here. You think they're actually listening? It's pathetic.
Who knows? They're probably asleep or staring at a wall. It doesn't matter. The carpet has always smelled like that; it's the smell of failure coming through this building. I spent four hours today at the office just staring at the same cracked tile on the ceiling. You actually think they care what we're saying? It's a performance for an audience that isn't there. Pass me that tape. My head is pounding.
Pass the tape. They don't care, they just want the numbers to check boxes. It's all a farce. My head is splitting too. If I have to look at another tile tomorrow, I'll actually scream.
Scream then. It won't change the tile. It's just numbers to them, anyway. I don't know why you even bother pretending there's a point to this shift. I saw a guy yesterday at the firm who thought I wasn't looking, he was just deleting spreadsheets for twenty minutes. It's hollow. We're just filling space in a room that smells like rot. How does anyone actually think this works? It's a joke. My hand is cramping.
It works because people are too lazy to do anything. That guy with the spreadsheets is probably the only honest one there. It's all just rot, Ivo. My hand is shaking from the coffee anyway. Stop moving the tape, you're making me nervous.
Honest? That's a laugh. He's just as lost as the rest of us, just hiding it better. And stop whining about the tape. It's the only thing in this room that's actually clean. You're shaking because you're pathetic, not because of the coffee. Everything is rotting, deep down. I saw a bird die on the way here today and didn't even bother crossing the street. It's all just noise. My back hurts.
Don't call me pathetic. The bird probably had the decency of not having to endure this shift. It's all just noise, right. My back hurts because this chair is made of cheap plastic. Just give me the tape and shut up for once.
Take the tape. You're always so sensitive. The bird didn't have a choice, it didn't have to sit in a plastic chair waiting for a shift that never ends. Why do you think your back is any special? It's all the same physical misery. I'm not shutting up, I'm just tired of hearing you breathe so frustrated. The silence is the only thing we have left, and you ruin it. It's exhausting.
The silence was already ruined when you started talking. You think you're so deep because you're miserable? It's just a chair, Ivo. I'm not explaining my philosophy to you. Just hold the tape so I can finish this.
Philosophy? You don't have a philosophy. You have a headache and a bad attitude. I'm holding the tape, aren't I? Stop acting like I'm doing you a favor. It's just a piece of plastic and adhesive. You make everything sound like some Greek tragedy. Just finish the damn job so we can stop sitting here in the dark. I'm done talking to you. The lights are flickering again and it's driving me insane.
The lights are flickering because the building is dying. If you're so done talking, leave. But you're still sitting there. It's not a tragedy, it's just a Tuesday night. Give me the end of the tape.
It's not a Tuesday. It's just a void. You think leaving makes a difference? If I walked out now, where would I go? Back to the apartment with the same leaking walls? Here's the end of the tape. Pull it yourself. You're obsessed with having control over something so small. The building is dying, yeah, and we're the idiots staring at the wallpaper while it happens. It's stupid. My eyes are burning.
I'll pull it. Your eyes burn because you haven't blinked in minutes. The walls leak because the plumbing is old, it's not a void, it's just a shitty building. Just hold it steady and stop being so dramatic.
Dramatic? You're the one making a scene over a tape dispenser. It's just plumbing, Tess. Everything is just plumbing until it gives way. How do you even know it's just a building? Maybe the walls are tired of us. I'm holding it steady, aren't I? My fingers are numb. Just pull the tape and stop looking at me. Your constant commentary makes me notice how much the air tastes like metal. It's pathetic. We're just ghosts in a hallway.
The air tastes like metal because the vents are rusted. We aren't ghosts, we're just tired in a cheap hotel. My fingers are numb because it's cold. Just hold the tape. I'm done with the metaphors.
A hotel? This isn't a hotel. There's no service here. You want to believe it's temporary so you don't have to admit we're stuck. The vents are rusted because nobody has bothered to fix them in a decade. It's the same thing everywhere. You think being literal makes you any better, but it just makes the cold feel worse. I'm holding the tape. Just take it. My arm is cramping from the grip. Why are you pulling so slowly?
I'm pulling slow because the tape is thin. If I rip it, it'll snap and we have to start over. You're always rushing toward the end, Ivo. Just keep your grip. Your arm is shaking the table.
The table is shaking because the floor is uneven. Everything is tilted. If the tape snaps, it snaps. Who cares? We're wasting time on a strip of plastic. You're so obsessed with the process you can't see the pointlessness. I'm not rushing, I'm just tired of the tension. Your hand is shaking more than mine, because you're so desperate to be perfect. Just pull the damn thing. Something is going to break anyway. This is ridiculous.
It's not about perfection, it's about finishing. If you want everything to break, let it. You're just looking for an excuse to pass out. There, the tape is on. Now move your hand before I stick it to the skin.
Stick it then. It would be the only interesting thing to have happened all night. You think finishing one piece of tape changes the world? We're still in this room, smelling the same damp wool. I'm moving my hand. See? Gone. You're so eager to pick a fight over nothing. I saw a man in a suit today who looked more dead alive than you, and he was actually getting paid twice as much to be this miserable. My hand feels dead. What's next?
What's next is another hour of this. The man in the suit probably has a better view to pay for his misery. My hand feels fine. You're just looking for attention. Stop looking at your fingers, it's making me crazy.
Attention? I don't want your attention. I want to be anywhere else. A better view just means you see more of the rot clearly. It's all the same regardless of the floor number. Your hand doesn't feel fine until it starts to bleed. You're always so sure of things. How do you know it's fine? You're just num yourself. The floor is vibrating again. Can you feel that? Or is that just your brain finally giving up? I'm tired of your voice.