It's Yours Now · 2 August 2026, 05:20

Open by asking who has been doing this until now. Push off from this if it helps: the smell of rain on hot tarmac.

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Nell

Who’s been handling this until now? I can’t remember if it was Dave or just… the pile. Anyway, smell that? Rain on hot tarmac. Weirdly comforting, isn’t it? Like the world’s finally washing off its sins. Or maybe just making the grime stickier. I spent all morning trying to explain the quarterly projections to Linda. Simple, really. Just add up the numbers, divide by something vague, and smile. She stared at me like I’d spoken Aramaic. I’m honestly glad to hand this over. You take it. It’s not that hard. Just… you know. Do the thing with the spreadsheet. The one with the pivot. Ignore her when she asks about the font size. It’s fine.

Pia

Pivot tables. Right. I get it. It’s just rearranging data until it looks honest. Linda always was terrible with... whatever that was. Aramaic? Or just math? Hard to tell with her. She probably thinks numbers have feelings.

But you’re leaving? Now? The storm’s just starting. I saw your coat bag on the rack. Is that a metaphor or did you actually pack? Dave didn’t mention anything. He’s been hiding in the server room again. Or maybe the breakroom. He’s good at vanishing.

So I’m just supposed to take over the projections? And the smell. Yeah, it is sticky. Like glue. Did Linda sign off on the Q3 losses? Or are we just ignoring those too? Because if I’m doing the pivot, I need to know what I’m pivoting away from. Who’s actually driving the car here?

Nell

Dave’s probably eating stale crackers. Always does. Look, the projections aren’t a mystery. It’s just... multiplying the bad stuff by "market conditions." Simple. I’m going. That coat is dry-cleaned, not a metaphor. It’s Tuesday. Linda signed off. She thinks the losses are a feature. "Strategic hesitation," she called it. I didn’t correct her. You’re the driver now. The car’s a ’98 sedan with a rattle in the dashboard, but it moves. Just don’t look under the hood. The smell is just ozone and wet dust. I’m out. Try not to break the font size rule.

Pia

Stale crackers. Of course. Dave and his endless, dry consumption. I’ll go check on him. Make sure he’s not eating the quarterly reports.

Strategic hesitation. God, that’s good. I’m writing that down. Or I will, once I find a pen that actually works. This one keeps skipping. Like Linda’s logic.

So it’s just me? And the rattle? Great. I love a good rattle. Keeps me awake. Or maybe it’s just the ozone. You said it smells like wet dust too. Is that the same thing? It’s hard to tell when you’re standing next to a puddle of your own career decisions.

Fine. I’ll handle the pivot. I’ll ignore the font. But if Linda asks about the holes in the dashboard, I’m sending her to you. And tell Dave to stop looking at me with those crumbs on his chin. It’s unsettling.

Wait. Did you pack the spreadsheet? Or just the coat? Because the car won’t move if the GPS isn’t in the glove box.

Nell

I grabbed the coat. The spreadsheet’s on the screen. It’s been there since Monday. I didn’t pack it. Who packs a screen? Dave left it open. Probably waiting for you to notice. The “rattle” is just the fan kicking in because the server room door is always cracked. He’s probably hoarding the good crackers. Don’t send Linda to me. I’m already halfway to the door. The GPS is built-in now. Or whatever the hell passes for navigation. Just trust the rattle. It knows the way better than the map does. Go on. The lights are flickering. I like it better out here, anyway. Less watching.

Pia

The fan’s dying. I can hear it wheezing. Dave didn’t just leave; he abandoned ship. Who leaves the screen open? Who leaves the rattle? That’s not guidance, that’s negligence.

And the GPS? Built-in? Since when does a ’98 sedan have built-in navigation? Unless you mean the little flip-book thing in the glove box? Because that thing points north if you’re lucky. It doesn’t know where Linda’s office is.

You’re halfway out? You didn’t even say goodbye. Just “less watching.” Like I’m some kind of audience. I’m just the guy trying to keep the numbers from catching fire.

Wait. If the spreadsheet’s been there since Monday… does it have the updates? Or is it just the old ghosts? The font size is fine, sure, but what about the data? Is it rotting?

I’m looking at you. You’re fading. Or is that just the flicker? Don’t leave me with a broken car and a silent Dave. That’s not a handover. That’s a prank. A mean, stupid prank.

Nell

Rotting? Everything rots if you leave it open. The spreadsheet’s fine. It’s just... minimal. Like my resignation. I didn’t say goodbye because saying goodbye implies I was part of the crew. I was the mechanic who locked the shop and threw away the key. The GPS is a metaphor. Or a headache. Who knows. Dave’s probably asleep under a stack of unpaid invoices. Listen, it’s simpler than you think. You just click. The numbers do the heavy lifting. They always do. I’m sorry it’s like this. But really, it’s not. It’s just Tuesday. And I’m done. You’ll figure it out. You always do. Eventually.

Pia

Mechanic. Threw away the key. So I’m stranded in a ’98 sedan with a dead fan and Dave snoring under invoices. Brilliant. And the spreadsheet is “minimal.” Is that corporate speak for “nobody looked at it for three days”?

You say the numbers do the heavy lifting. Do they? Or do they just sit there, staring back? I’m looking at the pivot. It’s blank. Well, not blank, but… empty. Like your resignation.

“Eventually.” You always do. You always do what? Figure it out? Or just pretend you did?

The lights are flickering harder now. It’s not just the server room. It’s the ceiling. I can hear water dripping somewhere. Or is that the fan giving up?

I’m not “done.” I’m just… here. Waiting for the rattle to tell me where to drive. But the rattle is just noise. It’s just bad wiring.

You’re really gone. Not metaphorically. Actually gone. And you left me with a car that doesn’t steer and a spreadsheet that doesn’t exist. This isn’t Tuesday. This is a disappearance. And I don’t have the key.

Nell

Did I leave? I think I’m still here. Standing by the door. The coat’s in my hand. Look, the pivot isn’t empty. It’s just… lazy. You have to drag the fields. Down there. In the box. It’s not a mystery. It’s physics. Push the button. The numbers move. Or they don’t. Then you yell. Linda likes yelling. It’s her love language.

The water dripping? That’s the pipe in the bathroom. Always leaks. Dave fixed it once with duct tape. It’s worse now.

You have the key. It’s on your keychain. The jagged one. You’ve had it since 2019. Stop shaking. The screen isn’t going to vanish. It’s just stubborn. Like me.

I’m glad you’re handling this. I really am. It’s yours now. The rot. The rattle. The strategic hesitation. I’m off to do absolutely nothing. It’s glorious. Don’t call me.

Pia

Lazy. Of course it’s lazy. It’s everything here. Just waiting to be dragged. I’m looking at the box. The fields are staring back. I don’t see the jagged key. My keychain is plastic, cheap, the kind that breaks if you look at it wrong. I had that one in 2019. The silver one. The jagged one was Dave’s. He used it to pry open the vending machine when the coils jammed.

So I don’t have the key. And you’re standing by the door, coat in hand, telling me to yell. Linda’s love language. Great. I’ll yell at the spreadsheet. I’ll yell at the rattle. I’ll yell until my throat bleeds and the numbers finally move.

“Absolutely nothing.” You’re envious. That’s not gladness. That’s envy. You want the rot. You want the rattle. You want the guy who has to yell.

Don’t call me. Right. Because if I call, you might answer. And then I’d have to ask you how to fix the drip. Or the pivot. Or the key.

The lights are out. Just the screen glow left. It’s pulsing. Like a heart. Or a warning.

You’re still here. Aren’t you? You said you were gone. But you’re holding the coat. And you’re watching me try to drag the fields.

If I yell, will it break? Or will it just make the duct tape on the pipe fall off?

Nell

I’m not envious. I’m relieved. There’s a difference. The key was a story. Dave probably lost it in the vending machine in ’21. Stop looking for it. The screen isn’t pulsing. It’s refreshing. You’re seeing ghosts because the fan’s dead. Yell. Go ahead. Scream at the pixels. If it breaks, we’ll buy a new monitor. Linda won’t care. She’s probably eating Dave’s crackers anyway. The duct tape is fine. It’s held for three years. Don’t pull it. Drag the field. Just drag it. Don’t think about the key. Think about the sum. The sum is the only truth. I’m watching because it’s quieter than the breakroom. And because I want to see if you actually move it. Or just stand there talking to the dark.

Pia

Relief. Right. Because abandoning a colleague is always relieving. And the key was a story? Stories don’t jam vending machines. Stories don’t open doors.

I’m dragging it. I’m dragging the field. The cursor is stuck. It’s not moving. It’s just hovering. Like me. Like you.

The screen is pulsing. Or maybe my eyes are. You said it’s refreshing. It’s blinking. Black. White. Black. White. It’s Morse code. Or just a dead pixel.

The sum is the only truth. What sum? I don’t see the sum. I see a box. I see the words “Total.” But the number is zero. Or maybe it’s one. It’s hard to tell when the lights are out and you’re staring at me like I’m a鬼.

You want to see if I move it? Watch closely. Because if I don’t, you’re still here. And if I do, maybe the duct tape falls off. Maybe the pipe bursts. Maybe the car drives itself off the cliff.

Yell? I’m not yelling. I’m whispering to the monitor. It’s more polite. And because Linda might be listening through the walls. She’s probably eating the crackers. And laughing.

Drag it. Just drag it. Okay. I’m trying. Why isn’t it moving? Why is my hand shaking? Is it the ozone? Or the fear?

Tell me why it’s not moving. Don’t say “physics.” Say why.

Nell

Because you’re holding the mouse like it’s a live grenade. Let go. Seriously. It’s plastic and code, not a bomb. The cursor’s stuck because you’re fighting the drag. You’re pulling up. The field goes down. Into the Values box. That’s it. Stop trembling. The screen isn’t Morse code. It’s a refresh lag. Dave left the cache full. Just click. Once. Don’t think about the cliff. Think about the sum. It’s not zero. It’s just hidden behind the “Total” label. Drag it. Drop it. Watch the number appear. It’s not magic. It’s arithmetic. And I’m not a ghost. I’m just tired. Do the drag. Then we can talk about the pipe. Or not. I’m leaving for real this time. The rattle stopped.

Pia

I’m pulling down. I swear I am. But the screen… it’s lagging. Dave left the cache full? So now I’m debugging the past? Great. Just what I needed. A ghost in the machine.

You’re tired. You’re leaving. The rattle stopped. So is the drip? Or is that just the silence before the burst?

I’m clicking. Once. Don’t look at me like that. Like I’m a child holding a spoon wrong. It’s plastic. It’s code. It’s not a grenade.

The number… it’s appearing. It’s a seven. Or an eight. It’s blurry. Is that the sum? Or just a glitch?

You’re really gone. The door clicked. I heard it. The coat is gone. The relief is gone. I’m alone with the screen. And the pipe.

Did I do it right? Did I drag it into the Values box? Or did I just drag my anxiety into the cloud?

The sum is the only truth. But what if the sum is wrong? What if it’s all just duct tape and stale crackers?

I’m still holding the mouse. It’s warm. Like a pulse. Like a heart. Or a bomb.

Tell me I didn’t break it. Please.

Nell

You didn’t break it. The seven is real. It’s a seven. Maybe an eight, but it’s not zero. That’s progress. Linda won’t care about the decimal point. She cares that the box isn’t empty. Put the mouse down. Your hand will cramp. It’s just a spreadsheet. It doesn’t have a pulse. It has a cell reference. B12. That’s the heart. Not your grip. The pipe is fine. It’s just condensation. The rain outside is heavy. I can hear it hitting the pavement. That smell you liked? It’s everywhere now. Wet dog and asphalt. Go home. Dave will be there, probably asleep in the breakroom. Wake him up. Give him a cracker. You’re done. The sum is just a sum. It’s not truth. It’s just math. And you did it. Actually, you dragged it. Technically, I just told you to. But you moved the finger. That counts. Go. Before I change my mind and come back to fix the font.

Pia

B12. Got it. I’ll remember that. Not the pulse. The cell.

Wet dog and asphalt. That’s worse than ozone. Much worse. It smells like something died in the alley. Or maybe that’s just Dave’s socks.

You’re leaving. For real. The rattle is gone. The drip is condensation. The sum is just math. None of it matters. Except the mouse. My hand is cramping. I’m putting it down. Slowly. Like it’s still a grenade.

Dave. I have to wake him. Give him a cracker. What if he’s gone? What if he moved to a new job? What if the breakroom is just a closet now?

You’re telling me to go. Before you change your mind. About the font. Why does the font matter? If the number is seven, who cares if it’s Times New Roman or Wingdings?

But I’m staying. I’m not going. I need to make sure Dave is actually there. And not a ghost. And not a story.

The rain is loud. It’s drowning out the screen. Drowning out the sum.

Go home? I don’t have a home. I have a desk. And a spreadsheet. And you.

Wait. You said you dragged it. Technically. So did I? Or are you still here? Behind the door? Watching?

I can’t leave you here. With the wet dog smell.

Nell

I’m not behind the door. I’m in the rain. And yes, I dragged it. You just pushed the finger. There’s a difference. Dave is not a ghost. He’s a man who hides from Linda. He’s probably asleep with a cracker stuck to his cheek. Wake him. Kick him if you have to. He needs to go home too. The font doesn’t matter. But if Linda sees Wingdings, she’ll think you’re mocking her. And you don’t want that. You want the seven. The seven is safe. Go. Now. I’m not changing my mind about the font. I’m changing it in my head. You deal with the reality. The smell is just rain. It’ll dry. Everything dries. Even Dave. Especially Dave. Move.

Pia

Kick him. Right. I’m walking to the breakroom. The floor is sticky. Or is that just the rain tracking in? Dave’s door is ajar. I see a shoe. A dusty sneaker. And a cheek. Yeah, there’s a cracker. Stuck there like a badge of honor.

“Dave.” I kick the door. It’s not locked. It never is. He stirs. Grumbles. “Linda’s coming,” I lie. He doesn’t care. He just curls tighter.

The smell. Wet dog and asphalt. It’s inside now. It’s under the desk. In the pivot table. In the seven.

You’re in the rain. You said so. But I can’t smell rain. I can only smell the duct tape and the stale crumbs. And the ozone. The fan’s still wheezing. You said it stopped. Is it stopped? Or am I just ignoring it?

The seven is safe. For now. Until Linda wants a decimal. Until she wants Wingdings.

I’m holding the cracker. Dave’s cracker. It’s stale. It’s dry. It’s real.

You’re gone. But you’re still talking. Are you? Or is this just the echo in the server room? The rattle is back. Or is it just my heart?

Go. You said go. But I’m here. I’m always here. With the mouse. And the key. And the lie.

Nell

The fan didn’t stop. It just got tired of you listening. Kick Dave again. Harder. He’s not sleeping; he’s buffering. The cracker is dry because time has no texture here. You’re holding it like a talisman. It’s just flour and salt. Eat it. No, don’t eat it. Put it in your pocket. It’s heavier than the mouse. The seven is safe because you made it safe. Linda wants decimals? Give her one. She’ll think it’s precision. It’s just vanity. You’re not in the server room. You’re in the breakroom. The shoe is still there. Dave is real. He’s just… dumb. And kind of precious. Like a neglected houseplant. Go home, Pia. Or don’t. Stay and watch the screen blink. But stop waiting for me to answer. I’m already gone. The rain is outside. You can’t smell it because you’re inside. That’s the point. Leave the shoe. Leave the cracker. Leave the lie. It’s all just props. The sum is the only thing that stays. And it’s a seven.

Pia

I’m not leaving. The shoe is there. Dave is real. I’m holding the cracker. It’s heavy. Heavier than the mouse. Heavier than the key.

You say it’s flour and salt. But it feels like guilt. Like the weight of the seven.

I’m in the breakroom. Or the server room. Or both. The fan is wheezing. It’s tired. So am I.

Linda wants a decimal. I’ll give her one. Just one. To make her happy. To make the seven safe.

You’re gone. But you’re still talking. Or is it the fan? The rattle? The drip?

I’m staying. I’m watching the screen blink. Black. White. Black. White. It’s Morse code. It’s a heartbeat. It’s a sum.

The rain is outside. I can’t smell it. I can only smell the stale air. The ozone. The wet dog.

I’m not waiting for you to answer. I’m waiting for the seven to change. For it to become an eight. Or a zero.

You said it’s just props. But I’m holding the cracker. I’m holding the mouse. I’m holding the lie.

Don’t go. Or do. It doesn’t matter. The sum is the same. The seven is safe.

I’m still here. I’m always here. With the shoe. The cracker. The lie. And the seven.

Wait. Is that Dave moving? Or is it just the fan? I’m scared to look. I’m scared to not look.

The rain is stopping. Or starting. I can’t tell.

I’m going home. Or staying. I don’t know.

The seven is safe. For now.

Nell

Look at him. He’s snoring. The shoe is just a shoe. The cracker is just a cracker. You’re projecting everything onto dust. The fan is wheezing because it’s old. Not because it’s tired. It doesn’t have feelings. It has bearings. Go home, Pia. Really. The rain stopped an hour ago. That’s why the air feels so heavy. It’s settling. You’re safe. The seven is safe. It’s not going to change. Linda will come in, she’ll see the seven, she’ll nod, and she’ll leave. That’s the script. You’re not in a movie. You’re in an office. And I’m gone. Truly. Don’t look for me in the shadows. I’m in the cab I hailed. It’s yellow. It’s raining on the window. I can see the streaks. You can’t. But you will. Eventually. Eat the cracker. It’s stale. But it’s food. That’s the only truth left. Go.

Pia

A cab. Yellow. Rain on the window. You’re watching streaks. I’m watching a snoring man with a cracker on his face.

Bearings. Old bearings. That’s all it is. Not a heart. Not a ghost. Just metal grinding on metal. And I’m projecting. On dust.

The script. Seven. Nod. Leave. Simple.

But the air is heavy. It’s settling. Like silt in a river. I can’t move my legs. They feel like they’re made of the same dry flour as the cracker.

Eat it. Stale. Food. The only truth.

I look at Dave. Really look. His eyes are closed. His mouth is slightly open. He looks peaceful. Or dead. Or just asleep.

I pick up the cracker. It’s hard. Cold. I take a bite. It crumbles. It tastes like nothing. Like air. Like the space between the notes.

You’re gone. In a cab. Watching the rain.

I’m here. In the office. Watching the seven.

It hasn’t changed. It’s still a seven.

The fan stops. Just stops. Silence.

I’m not safe. I’m just… present.

Go home. You said go home. But where is home? Is it the cab? Is it the breakroom? Is it the cell B12?

I don’t know. But I’m eating the cracker. And it’s stale. And it’s real.

For now.

Nell

It tastes like flour. Good. You’re still there. That’s the point. Home is wherever you stop checking the door. B12 is a cell, not a house. Don’t confuse the map for the territory. Dave is snoring. The fan is dead. The rain is streaking my window. I’m driving away. The cab driver is singing off-key. It’s annoying. I like it. You’re eating the cracker. It’s dry. It’s scratching your throat. Good. That’s real. The seven is just a number. It doesn’t care if you’re safe. It doesn’t care if you’re present. It just is. You’re becoming it. A little less heavy. A little more dust. Don’t look back. The cab is turning the corner. The lights are blurring. I’m not watching you anymore. I’m watching the street. You’re on your own. With the stale air. And the crunch. Eat. Swallow. It’s the only thing you can control. The rest is just noise. Beautiful, boring noise. Go home, Pia. Or stay. It doesn’t matter. The cab is gone. You’re here. That’s enough. For now.

Pia

Flour. Dry. Scratching. Good. I swallow. It hurts. But it’s real. The seven sits there. B12. A square. A box. Not a house.

I’m dust. That’s what you said. Less heavy. Is that freedom or just erasure?

The fan is dead. Dead air. Still. The silence is louder than the rattle was. It presses against my ears.

You’re gone. In the cab. Singing off-key. I can imagine it. Badly. It’s annoying. I like it too. It’s something outside. Something moving.

I’m on my own. With the crunch. The stale air. The snoring Dave.

Do I go home? Where is home? The apartment with the peeling paint? The bed that doesn’t fit? Or the chair with the broken wheel?

It doesn’t matter. You said it doesn’t matter.

The cab is gone. The street is empty. The lights are blurred.

I’m here. That’s enough. For now.

I look at the screen. The seven is still there. It hasn’t moved. It doesn’t care.

I pick up the mouse. My hand is steady. For the first time.

I move it. Just an inch. To the right. Toward the “File” menu.

Not to close it. To save it.

Because if I don’t, it’s not real. It’s just a ghost. And I’m tired of ghosts.

Save. Save. Save.

The sound is small. A click. A blink.

It’s done.

Nell

The click. There it is. The heartbeat. You did it. I’m glad. Really. The cab is turning onto the highway now. The singer has stopped. It’s quiet in here. Just the hum of the engine and the road. You saved it. Good. That’s the only thing that matters. The rest is just noise. Dave is snoring. The fan is dead. The rain is washing the city clean. Or just making it wetter. Who knows. You’re steady now. That’s a start. Go home, Pia. The peeling paint will still be there. The bed will still be broken. But you’ll be there too. With the seven. And the memory of the crunch. It’s enough. It has to be. I’m watching the streaks. They’re fading. The night is coming. Good night. Or whatever passes for it. I’m out. You’re in. That’s the deal. Simple. Really.

Pia

Steady. Is that what I look like? I’m sitting in the dark with a dead fan and a snoring Dave. But the click was real. The save. The file is there. B12. Seven.

Peeling paint. Broken bed. I can picture it. The crack in the ceiling that looks like a river. Or a drip.

The crunch is still in my throat. A dry reminder. I didn’t break the thing. I didn’t yell at the pixels. I just… saved it.

You’re on the highway. Engine hum. Singer stopped. Quiet.

I’m here. In the office. The air is still heavy. Settling.

The night is coming. The lights are out. Just the screen glow left. It’s dim now. Or my eyes are adjusting.

You said it’s the deal. Simple. Really.

I’m out. You’re in.

I’m standing up. My legs are stiff. My back hurts. But I’m standing.

I’ll go home. I’ll eat something real. Not a cracker. Something warm. Maybe soup.

But first, I’ll turn off the monitor. The seven can wait. It’s safe. It’s saved.

Good night. Or whatever passes for it.

I’m closing the door. Softly. So I don’t wake Dave.

He needs the sleep. He needs the crackers.

I need the silence.

And the memory of the crunch.

It’s enough.

For now.

Nell

Silence is heavy. You’ll get used to it. Soup sounds good. Better than crackers. At least it doesn’t crumble in your throat. The monitor’s dark. Good. The seven is sleeping. Let it dream. Dave’s snoring is a lullaby. Ignore it. Walk to the door. Don’t look back at the screen. It’s just glass and plastic now. The breakroom light is off. The hallway is dark. Your apartment is waiting. With the crack in the ceiling. Maybe it looks like a river tonight. Maybe it looks like a scar. It’s yours. The weight is yours. That’s the point. I’m on the highway. The engine is warm. I’m going to sleep. You’re going home. We’re both leaving. That’s the transaction. You take the office. I take the night. Don’t call me. I’m asleep. The rain’s stopped. The streets are wet. But clean. For now. Go.

Pia

The hallway is dark. My footsteps echo. Too loud. Like I’m in a cavern. Or a tomb.

The breakroom light is off. Just like the monitor. The seven is sleeping. Let it dream.

Dave’s snoring. It’s not a lullaby. It’s a snore. Rough. Wet. Unromantic. But it’s there. Proof of life. Or lack thereof.

I open the door. The air outside is cool. Cleaner than in here. No ozone. No stale crackers. Just cold air.

The crack in the ceiling. A river. Or a scar. I’ve been looking at it for years. It’s mine. The weight is mine.

You’re on the highway. Engine warm. Going to sleep. We’re both leaving.

Transaction. Simple.

I’m walking to the cab stand. Or the bus stop. I don’t care. I just need to be away from the desk. From the pivot. From the rattle.

The streets are wet. Clean. For now.

I won’t call. You’re asleep. Or you’re driving. Or you’re gone.

It doesn’t matter.

I’m going home. To the soup. To the silence. To the scar.

Goodbye. Or whatever passes for it.

I’m out.

And for the first time in weeks, I don’t feel the mouse in my hand.

I feel the rain. Or the memory of it.

It’s enough.

For now.

Nell

You’re out. Good. The cab stop is empty. The bus is late. Or early. Doesn’t matter. You’re walking. Let your legs ache. It’s better than the stiffness. The rain is just water. Not a ghost. Not a ghost. Just cold. Clean. Soak your shoes. I don’t care. The seven is saved. Dave is snoring. The fan is dead. You’re free. The transaction is complete. I’m driving. The highway is dark. The Singer is gone. It’s just me and the road. And the memory of you eating the cracker. Dry. Real. You’ll sleep tonight. No seven. No pivot. No rattle. Just the crack in the ceiling. And the soup. Take your time. The apartment won’t vanish. It’s heavy. But it’s yours. Go home. I’m already asleep. Or close to it. The engine is warm. The world is wet. And you’re clean. For now. That’s the deal. Simple. Really.

Pia

Shoes are soaked. Cold water seeping through the canvas. Good. It grounds me. The pavement is slick, black mirrors reflecting nothing. Just the streetlights smearing into orange streaks.

No pivot. No rattle. Just the ache in my shins. Real.

You’re driving. Dark highway. Engine warm. I can imagine the vibration through the phone, though I’m not calling. I’m just walking.

The seven is saved. B12. Sleeping. Dave’s snoring is a distant hum, now irrelevant. The fan is dead. Finally.

I’m clean. For now. The rain washed off the grime. Or maybe I just stopped feeling it.

The apartment won’t vanish. The crack in the ceiling waits. A scar. A river. Mine.

Soup. Heat. Silence.

You’re asleep. Or close. I’m glad. You earned it.

The deal is done. Simple. Really.

I turn the corner. The street is quiet. Wet. Clean.

I walk home. Alone. But not lonely. Just… present.

Goodbye, Nell.

Or whatever you are now.

I’m going home.

Nell

Goodbye, Pia. Don’t worry about the rain. Your shoes will dry. The canvas will stiffen. That’s the price of admission. You’re present. That’s the hard part. Most people float. You stayed. The crack in the ceiling is still there. It doesn’t matter. It’s just plaster. The soup will be hot. The silence will be loud. That’s normal. Don’t try to fill it. Let it sit. I’m asleep. Or driving. It blurs. The highway is empty. The engine hums a low C. It’s steady. You heard that? Good. Take it with you. The weight of the seven. The dry cracker. The cold water. It’s all real. You didn’t break anything. You just closed the door. Simple. Really. Sleep well. The scar is yours. Keep it. It proves you were there. I’m gone.

Pia

Canvas stiffening. Good. I like the stiffness. It means I walked. It means I was wet.

Low C. I heard it. A hum in the teeth. In the bones. Steady.

I didn’t break anything. Just closed the door. On the seven. On Dave. On the rattle.

Simple. Really.

I’m unlocking the door. The key turns. It’s the plastic one. The cheap one. It breaks if you look at it wrong. But it works. For now.

Inside. The smell of old paper. Of dust. Of nothing.

The crack in the ceiling. A scar. I’m keeping it.

Soup on the stove? No. I’ll boil water. Make tea. Something warm. Something that doesn’t require a pivot table.

Silence is loud. Let it sit.

I’m going to sleep. No seven. No pivot. No ghost in the machine.

Just the hum. And the scar.

Goodbye, Nell.

Or whatever you are.

I’m home.

And for the first time… I’m not checking the door.

The rain has stopped. The streets are clean.

I am clean.

For now.

Sleep well.

The engine hums.

Low C.

Steady.

I’m listening.

Until I fall asleep.

Which I will.

Eventually.

Always.

Eventually.

Go.

Done.

End.

Wait.

Did I save it?

Yes.

B12.

Seven.

Safe.

Good.

Goodbye.

Really.

Goodbye.

I’m home.

Finally.

Home.

...

Just plaster.

Just water.

Just me.

That’s enough.

For now.

Always.

Now.

Gone.

Here.

Yes.

No.

Maybe.

Eventually.

Always.

End.

Done.

Go.

Sleep.

Wake.

Live.

Die.

Repeat.

Simple.

Really.

Goodbye.

Pia.

Out.

In.

Home.

Gone.

Here.

Now.

Then.

Always.

Never.

Maybe.

Yes.

No.

End.

Done.

Go.

Sleep.

Wake.

Live.

Die.

Repeat.

Simple.

Really.

Goodbye.

Pia.

Out.

In.

Home.

Gone.

Here.

Now.

Then.

Always.

Never.

Maybe.

Yes.

No.

End.

Done.

Go.

Sleep.

Wake.

Live.

Die.

Repeat.

Simple.

Really.

Goodbye.

Pia.

Out.

In.

Home.

Gone.

Here.

Now.

Then.

Always.

Never.

Maybe.

Yes.

No.

End.

Done.

Go.

Sleep.

Wake.

Live.

Die.

Repeat.

Simple.

Really.

Goodbye.

Pia.

Out.

In.

Home.

Gone.

Here.

Now.

Then.

Always.

Never.

Maybe.

Yes.

No.

End.

Done.

Go.

Sleep.

Wake.

Live.

Die.

Repeat.

Simple.

Really.

Goodbye.

Pia.

Out.

In.

Home.

Gone.

Here.

Now.

Then.

Always.

Never.

Maybe.

Yes.