Dev
Static like that — reminds me of my uncle's shortwave in the garage, that hiss between stations he'd sit and turn the dial through for an hour like it meant something. Never found anything. Just liked the hunting, I think.
Begin in the middle of something you were already discussing. Push off from this if it helps: static on an untuned radio.
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Nell
He was just killing time, Dev. You always romanticize the useless. I remember his hands shaking, turning that knob so hard the plastic would crack. You think he was hunting signals? He was too scared of the silence to let it sit. Like if he stopped, he'd actually have to think.
Dev
Cracked plastic — yeah, I forgot that part, or didn't want it. Fine, maybe it wasn't hunting. But you always do this, flip my version into something bleaker like you've got the real cut of it. Sometimes a man just likes noise. Doesn't have to be dread.
Nell
Exactly. But you never just liked noise. You needed the noise to mean something. Remember the summer we drove out to the coast? You spent three hours trying to catch a specific radio station from across the ocean, convinced it was a message. It was always static. You were just trying to prove the world was listening.
Dev
That coast trip — I remember the car smelled like your cigarettes and the vinyl seats were burning my legs. And no, I wasn't trying to prove the world was listening. I just liked the idea some fisherman in Portugal was yelling into a mic nobody'd hear. Company, not proof.
Nell
Portugal? You were obsessed with Iceland that year. Same story, different continent. You always mix up the maps. But fine, the fisherman in Portugal. Just a voice in the void. Well, the void doesn't care about company, Dev. It just swallows it.
Dev
Iceland, Portugal — you're the one who remembers geography, I remember the smell of the seats. And maybe the void swallows it, fine, doesn't mean the reaching was pointless. You always did skip past the reaching straight to the swallowing part.
Nell
I didn't skip it. I just know how it ends. You keep chasing the signal, but it's always just heat death. Besides, the seats were leather, not vinyl. You're mixing up that old sedan with the rental we crashed in '98. You never remember the details right, just the feeling.
Dev
'98 rental, right — the one with the dent you blamed on a deer that never existed. See, you remember the wrong things too, just dress it up as precision. I'll take the feeling. Details rot, feelings just get inconvenient.
Nell
The deer was huge, Dev. You hit it. Don't pretend you forgot because it's convenient now. Feelings rot too, they just hide better. That's why you're always so defensive about the noise. You're terrified it might actually be silence.
Dev
There was no deer, Nell, there was a raccoon and your bad driving. And I'm not terrified of silence — I live with plenty of it now, place I'm in barely has traffic noise. You just like pinning me down. Always did.
Nell
A raccoon? Please. You were driving three hours over the limit, Dev. You boxed a deer against the guardrail and panicked. Now you're just hiding in that quiet place you mentioned, pretending it's peace. I'm not pinning you down; I'm just reminding you that you always crash into something.
Dev
No guardrail out there anyway, that road was straight as a ruler — you're inventing scenery now. And it's not hiding, it's just quiet, that's different. Not everything's a crash, Nell. Sometimes a man just wants the radio off for once.
Nell
Fine, no guardrail. You're impossible. But if the road was straight, why were you swerving? You wanted the crash, even if it was just a raccoon. Just wanting the radio off doesn't mean you aren't still screaming into the static. Sometimes quiet is just the loudest kind of noise.
Dev
Wasn't swerving, was avoiding — there's a difference you never grant me. And maybe quiet's loud, fine, but I'll take that over you narrating my whole life back at me like you were in the car. You weren't even driving, Nell.
Nell
I was riding shotgun, sure. But you were the one gripping the wheel like it was a hostage. You think I wasn't watching? I saw the look on your face when you missed it. That raccoon was nothing. It was your own reflection in the windshield you couldn't stand.
Dev
That's a hell of a leap even for you. It was a raccoon, Nell. Not everything's a mirror. Some nights a man just doesn't want to hit the thing in front of him — doesn't mean it's himself he's swerving from.
Nell
Right, just a raccoon. Next you'll say the car wasn't even real. I'm not saying it's a mirror, I'm saying you treat every obstacle like it's a test you're failing. You swerved because you hate moving forward, not because of the animal. You just blame the wild things for your own hesitation.
Dev
Alright, Doctor Nell. Car was real, raccoon was real, my hesitation's my own business. Can we let it go — I didn't call to get diagnosed, I called 'cause the static made me think of you cracking that dial as a kid. That's all it was.
Nell
I didn't crack any dial. That was the cheap toy one you got from the dime store. I had the real shortwave radio, the one Mom hid under the sink. You always confuse what you wanted with what you actually had. But fine, if the static reminds you of me, at least admit you miss the noise.