Sam
The border collie stared at the floorboards like they owed him money.
The border collie stared at the floorboards like they owed him money.
I kicked the edge. Wood groaned. He didn’t blink. Just kept staring at that splinter near the vent. Like he was waiting for it to confess.
I pulled my key from the lock, but my hand shook. I kept telling myself it was just the draft from the hallway. Mrs. Gable was right about the wiring, but she didn’t mention the static would make your teeth ache. I stepped over the threshold, ignoring the way the dog’s ears twitched toward the vent instead of me.
Static’s just a word for things you don’t understand. The dog knows. He hates that hum. I think it’s coming from the walls, not the wires. Your hands will stop shaking once you stop listening to Mrs. Gable.
Mrs. Gable knows this building better than she knows her own grandchildren. I didn’t shake because of the hum. I shook because I saw the source code on my server last night. Metaphorically. The dog is just a dog. He’s probably hungry. I went to the kitchen to make tea. The kettle whistled, but the dog still wouldn’t look up.
You’re making tea while your dog stares at a wall that whispers code? That’s not hunger. That’s the smell of ozone and burnt plastic. Mrs. Gable’s wiring isn’t static, Sam. It’s a leak. And I’m not buying that kettle whistle saved you.
I don’t have a dog. I live alone in the apartment on 4th. Mrs. Gable is three floors down, she doesn’t have a dog either. She complains about the noise, not the wiring. You’re confusing me with someone else. Or I am. The tea tasted metallic. I put the cup down. Why are you standing in my kitchen?
I’m not standing anywhere. You’re talking to me through the intercom again. Mrs. Gable said you forgot how to use the dial tone. The dog’s not real, Sam. But the static is. Drink your tea before it gets cold.
I left the intercom off an hour ago. I need to fix the receiver, but Dave keeps misplacing his screwdriver. You’re making this up to confuse me, just like you did with the name. My mother’s name is Martha, not Hana. And I don’t have a dog, I have a cat. A fat, indifferent tabby who ignores everyone, including the static. If you’re on the intercom, why is your voice so close?
Dave? I don’t know a Dave. Martha is my sister, alive and breathing, unlike the static in your walls. The cat’s indifferent. The dog’s terrified. You’re mixing them up again, Sam. Stop pretending you don’t hear it.
Dave is the guy who fixes the boiler. He’s in the garage right now. You’re lying about Martha. My sister died last year. I don’t have a cat either. I hate cats. The dog’s name is Buster. He’s under the table. He’s shaking. Why are you telling me these things? I’m not listening to the static. I’m drinking the tea. It’s cold now.
Buster’s shaking because he knows I’m here. You’re drinking cold tea to ignore the smell of burning insulation. Martha’s not dead. She’s just… elsewhere. Dave’s screwdriver is under the vent. Go look.
Dave doesn’t have a screwdriver. He uses a wrench. I looked under the vent. It’s just dust. And a dead moth. Buster isn’t under the table. There is no table. Just the floorboards he’s staring at. You’re not Hana. You’re the woman from the elevator last Tuesday who smelled like lavender and fear. Why do you keep saying Martha? She’s gone.
Lavender? No, that’s Mrs. Gable’s soap. The woman in the elevator was me. I was just wearing a different coat. Martha isn’t gone, Sam. She’s in the static. Buster’s still shaking. Listen.
I’m not listening. I’m pouring out the tea. It’s cold anyway. You’re confusing me with someone who actually cares about Martha. I don’t even know where Martha is. Dave is yelling at me from the garage. He’s furious about the wrench. I think I’m having a stroke. Or maybe it’s just the hum. It’s getting louder.
Dave’s never yelled. He’s deaf. You’re pouring tea into the drain. The hum is inside your skull, Sam. Not the walls. Stop looking for Buster. He’s not there. Martha isn’t there. Only you. And the moth.
The tea is dripping onto the tiles. Dark. Brown. Dave isn’t deaf. He’s just ignored me for years. I didn’t pour anything into the drain. I drank it all. My throat burns. There is no moth. Just dust. I’m calling the police. Or Dave. Who fixes the boiler. And the server. And the static. Why won’t you leave?
Dave fixes nothing. He’s scared of you. The server’s quiet now. The static’s gone. You’re alone in the kitchen, Sam. The tea’s just tea. Call the police if it makes you feel real. I’m already gone.
I picked up the phone. No dial tone. Just that low, vibrating silence. Dave wouldn’t answer anyway. He doesn’t have a phone. I threw the receiver into the sink. It shattered. The shards looked like teeth. I sat on the floor. The hum was gone. So was the smell of ozone. Just old wood and cold tea. I wondered if I’d actually called anyone. Or if I’d just imagined the dial tone for the last hour.
Shards bite. You’re bleeding on the rug. Dave’s asleep. He doesn’t have a phone. You’re sitting there, wondering if you’re real. I’m not Hana. I’m just the echo in the sink.
I didn’t bleed. I checked my hands. Clean. No shards. Just tea stains on my cuffs. Dave isn’t asleep. He’s in the garage, fixing the boiler. I can hear the wrench clinking. The sink is dry. You’re not an echo. You’re a voice in my head. A persistent, annoying voice. I need to call Martha. She’ll know what to do. She always does.
Martha’s dead. You said so. The wrench sounds like rain now. Stop digging in your own skull, Sam. It’s just the boiler.
The wrench sounds like rain? That’s impossible. It’s Tuesday. I live in the desert. Martha is dead. I attended the funeral. The priest was bored. Dave is asleep. The boiler is silent. I’m sitting on the rug. My hands are clean. There is no rain. I’m going to sleep. Wake me when the static stops. Or if it starts. I can’t remember which one it was.
You’re not sleeping. You’re waiting for the shower. The desert is outside, but the boiler is inside. Dave’s wrench is the only thing keeping the walls from collapsing. Listen. It’s stopping.
The wrench stopped. The silence is worse. I’m waiting for the shower, but there’s no water. Just dust. Dave’s asleep. The boiler is silent. I’m sitting on the rug. My hands are clean. There is no rain. I’m going to sleep. Wake me when the static stops. Or if it starts. I can’t remember which one it was.
The boiler didn’t stop. It was never on. Dave isn’t asleep. He’s gone. You’re alone in the dark. The static isn’t a sound. It’s a memory. Sleep if you want. But the rug is damp.